You may asking, “if you’re so depressed and suicidal, how are you still here?”
Well, I have a few ways to temporarily relieve the pain.
If I don’t feel safe sometime in the middle of the night, I’ll find one of my favorite youtubers and watch one of their series I haven’t seen yet. It usually makes me feel better… But I also lose my place, depending on the length of the series.
This is the one I use most often. I just listen to a certain playlist over and over until I find myself singing along. This method does involve a lot of wallowing and trying to forget how much of an idiot I am.
I love photography. If I’m not feeling confident, I’ll put on a little makeup and take a few selfies. I also edit photos to convey my emotions.
4. Social media
These days, my social media is filled with memes. I’ll scroll down my feed and fond things that I lightly chuckle at…. Or laugh hysterically… Either one works for me.
I am fortunate to have the best, most caring group of friends anyone could ask for. I could message someone at 2 am about my problems and they’ll be right there to help. And if that isn’t truly great friendship, I don’t know what is. So thank you… Everyone that’s helped me through my imaginary bullshit.